I Want To See Again

Today I’ve been thinking that I might be willing to give a cornea transplant another shot if the opportunity ever comes up. I have had a couple and both rejected. I have no idea where this is coming from but it’s on my mind today.

The most recent one was fine one day and I woke up the next morning everything was very blurry. Before that things were great. I was noticing things every day that I had never seen before. I went to the doctor and they put me on eye drops ever hour 18 hours a day and it slowly got better.

Things stayed pretty good for a few years but then my vision in that eye slowly got worse. It happened so slowly that I didn’t even notice it until one day I realized I was using my “bad” eye which hadn’t every been operated on. That set off a long period of depression.

The eye doctors told me that I could get put on the list for another cornea but at that time I decided I didn’t want to because they weren’t working for me they might have a better chance for someone else and thought it would be selfish to get another one.

I’m not sure why the sudden change of heart on it but I really do think I would like to give it another try. Maybe it would work better this time. It would be worth it to me even if it didn’t last forever to have the opportunity to see things clearly again. It would be great to be able to just read a book without a huge difficulty

It would be awesome to be able to see nature. Geocaching gets me out there a lot. I would love to see the hawks and other birds that fly along the Susquehanna river. It would be wonderful to get the chance to see a bald eagle or just the shapes of complexity of trees. Right now they’re just a green blur. I didn’t appreciate having the chance to see these sorts of things enough in the past but I would now.

Most importantly I would love the chance to see Molly’s face.